i am not me :/

Assalamualaikum

betul lah apa orang lain cakap
once dah post something, you tend to post again, LOL

i am reading again my blogS
and i realize how much i changed
i miss the old me
i dont know what isit
but i just miss me *like seriously, in tears*

the old pelangi
that could make people happy
that could erase all the sorrow
that could be depended on

now,
im being too weak
not as cheerful as before

im sorry
i guess time really changed me
if i could be the same person again
i will try hard to be a good friend

i am still pelangi
but
the 'modified' one :)
call me when you need me, xoxo.

see the one of the old post of mine, from the other blog ;

saat berdetik laju.

seperti yang aku sangka, hambar semuanya. dikala tangan menyusun, setiap sentuhan keatas sesuatu memancarkan 1001 kenangan. kolam air mata penuh, hampir banjir. teringat peristiwa lama. ketawa dalam tangisan. benci untuk kenangkan namun makin kerap ini berlaku bila aku cuba elak. bermain-main perasaan gugup di akal fikiran, keyakinan tergugat, semangat makin malap, kemampuan aku diragui hati, haruskah aku meneruskan perjalanan ini, yang makin sukar, yang makin banyak laluan keliru, mungkin suatu hari nanti aku akan sesat dan hanya berdiam diri. mengharapkan esok tak akan ada. supaya laluan itu hilang selamanya.

mengarut ; pelangi

they lie, dont listen to them, only listen to yourself :)

ps; that is so me :)